Early stages
Assalammualaikum..
25/5/15 - my mom passed away..
25/7/15 - yesterday was the second period (2months) .they still counting the day/week/month soon to be a year..
the early stage for me is done..
I think so..
last previous post was about the reflection of what u have to give and what would expect from parents or as parents towards children.
I gave my fully life to them..
even now..
what should I say more..
I have siblings..
whose have another life commitment..
so do I...
but I have too..
have to sacrifice time/career/even my whole life..
I never ask for rewards ,because I know God (Allah knows better)
Sisters -Sometimes they ask me to do this and that..
I did
why?
because of respect!
but yet I always disappointed with their attitude..the typical mind that they always carry along till now..- ALWAYS THINk IM THE LAST AND I NEED TO DO WHAT THEY ASK.. :'(
used to complained the same thing to my late mother, she always give me courage and positive feedback..
nowadays, I'm not used to speak to my dad..
people ask why?
dad used to be a workaholic,even after become a pensioner he still working..
just because few months ago he had suspected of sarcoma (bone cancer) after did the biopsy twice he accidently broke his femur now he is on the frame walker..
late mom were there at that time and took care of him right after the operation and I was a sub teacher (only part time) because I have my priority towards them.
then now, dad still in his early stage of sorrowing and sobering himself..
me- honestly speaking, at the first moment my mom pass away 2 weeks after I finish my contract as sub-teacher and I have no clue..i didn't received my salary at that moment and wished to buy a present for her birthday..sadly I found it hopeless because I received the salary on the day my mom passed away :'(
I can say I miss her,but I know I cant be sad about that,because I have faith and she is in the better place over there and someday we will meet again..
my focus now on my dad and I have no time to be sad,because to be sad over it has no point and its not gonna wake my mom back alive..the thing I can do is pray for her goodness there..
InsyaAllah only Allah knows and but she always be in my heart and pray till die..
I know she sacrifice a lot of her time for US but yet she knows whose is whose...
the early stage is done for me..
I have too
have to let go..
to move on..
its for my time to do what I have to do
to mom I did my very best to take care of you (Allah knows well)
to others I will do my best but I have to do same to my own life..not selfish because I have watched how selfish's acted surrounds me.
Go in peace
Go in kindness
Go in love
Go in faith
Leave the day
The day behind us
Day is done....
song that sung by Candice.A in tvd 6x15 "Let Her Go"
25/5/15 - my mom passed away..
25/7/15 - yesterday was the second period (2months) .they still counting the day/week/month soon to be a year..
the early stage for me is done..
I think so..
last previous post was about the reflection of what u have to give and what would expect from parents or as parents towards children.
I gave my fully life to them..
even now..
what should I say more..
I have siblings..
whose have another life commitment..
so do I...
but I have too..
have to sacrifice time/career/even my whole life..
I never ask for rewards ,because I know God (Allah knows better)
Sisters -Sometimes they ask me to do this and that..
I did
why?
because of respect!
but yet I always disappointed with their attitude..the typical mind that they always carry along till now..- ALWAYS THINk IM THE LAST AND I NEED TO DO WHAT THEY ASK.. :'(
used to complained the same thing to my late mother, she always give me courage and positive feedback..
nowadays, I'm not used to speak to my dad..
people ask why?
dad used to be a workaholic,even after become a pensioner he still working..
just because few months ago he had suspected of sarcoma (bone cancer) after did the biopsy twice he accidently broke his femur now he is on the frame walker..
late mom were there at that time and took care of him right after the operation and I was a sub teacher (only part time) because I have my priority towards them.
then now, dad still in his early stage of sorrowing and sobering himself..
me- honestly speaking, at the first moment my mom pass away 2 weeks after I finish my contract as sub-teacher and I have no clue..i didn't received my salary at that moment and wished to buy a present for her birthday..sadly I found it hopeless because I received the salary on the day my mom passed away :'(
I can say I miss her,but I know I cant be sad about that,because I have faith and she is in the better place over there and someday we will meet again..
my focus now on my dad and I have no time to be sad,because to be sad over it has no point and its not gonna wake my mom back alive..the thing I can do is pray for her goodness there..
InsyaAllah only Allah knows and but she always be in my heart and pray till die..
I know she sacrifice a lot of her time for US but yet she knows whose is whose...
the early stage is done for me..
I have too
have to let go..
to move on..
its for my time to do what I have to do
to mom I did my very best to take care of you (Allah knows well)
to others I will do my best but I have to do same to my own life..not selfish because I have watched how selfish's acted surrounds me.
Go in peace
Go in kindness
Go in love
Go in faith
Leave the day
The day behind us
Day is done....
song that sung by Candice.A in tvd 6x15 "Let Her Go"
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