Ottoke (naega eotteoh-ge haeyahab nikka)

What... What should i do..

 it's been a while after my result out, it was on 15/2/2013

and yes!officially completed my Master programme.. 

Weehooo LL.M will be attend the convocation on May and yeah..

i've to wait for that long right..

 i've this kind of excited feeling mixed with sad after all, i wished i've guts to continue LL.B since everyone kept asking me "so u'll be a lawyer soon" i only can replied with a smile and showing my bright whitey teeth "sorry, i could be IF ONLY i've my professional cert". with that question sometimes it's really put me down (low self esteem) and..

 keep wondering am i kind a wasted person which i have my degree in law and master in law but doesn't have my professional cert to practice??

i wished i can changed who am i back then and become more and more passion in studying law while in degree but yet i never had this dream to be a professional in this field, the guts of become one of them just fades away like a shadow after i had my inter-ship at the court which i get to know all the procedure in a month was just enough for me.

so now after my convocation day i've decided to walk away from where i'm working now and to enter another ground of working but yet my decision only become a dream that i wished to fullfill someday. the dream just stop there when i met my orthopaedic doctor and found out that i need to have a ''very nice cut" on my knee soon with his tools such as 'cannula', 'arthoscope', 'arthoscopic instrument' etc. The doctor asked me to decide the date for the surgery.At first i thought the recovery within a very short time but the doctor said for a sportsman it took about 2 months but for normal person 6-9 months. i was shocked that time when heard about the recovery time after the surgery and at the final conversation with the doctor i've decided that my surgery will be right after my convocation day.

i was thinking if i had my surgery and then went to convocation with the crunches, (what a gimmick) are u  kidding me..some people would say wow even she like that she had completed her programme or else..better not come to the convocation if you are in that condition.. (we never knows what people would think about us, sometime good, sometimes bad there no statement of fair in judging a person)

Ottoke...again ottoke...

i repeat again what....what should i do..

i would say there's always good things behind everything u think is bad

there's always a reward behind everyhthing u've  let go...